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Winter has come. It was dark when I woke up and when I opened up the window, I was surprised to see a world of winter and smell the air.
I don't like summer but I don't like the very chilly and rainy winter days neither.
The main thing I like about this season is that, since I was very little, I always felt the real life, the life that is happening all around is always occurring between October and June. I never enjoyed holidays, even in my busiest and non responsible moments in my academic life, I have felt the moment is happening, I am in my life that I'm supposed to live and so are the people all around me, in the city that I live in, in my habitat.
I used to feel sorry and desperate for the opportunities that I could be missing while I'm here living at the moment. This winter thing I believe has it's roots in that point of view. Nobody's allowed to leave the city and their opportunities in winter, so the chances of our lives crossing are even.
Well I managed to get over the uneasy feeling and seeing life as a collection of my possibly missed opportunities and got used to living the moment (well not that cliche as it sounds as I still love the future while not easily giving up the past but the moment is something I can not avoid, that I could finally understand and embrace).
What I was trying to say, in conclusion is that; baby it's cold outside, come inside and let's drink some wine and smoke while Tom sings Little Drop of Poison before starting to study for the midterms. I don't know if the devil made the world while got was sleeping but I am sure that I, too, remember when a million was a million and they all have ways to make you pay...
I like the cities with a little poison inside, too Tom.Sure, nobody knows they're lining up to go insane and I can not avoid to agree on the smoking up to the filter part, but poisonous Istanbul, I must have been immune to. I'm heading to New York. Leaving the filters and the beloved ones behind. All alone..to the winter of the very very cold, very very poisonous big apple.