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Today I realized that the more I enjoy spending time alone, the harder it becomes to be surrounded by people. I also thought that, I will be a happier person when I have real responsibilities that I can not ignore, having a full time job for example. I am older than all the people I used to consider as adults when I was little but today I still feel like an adolescent. I can not get over the feeling I can describe as "being in process" or "still not completed". I know that it sounds silly but even in the best moments I have it ringing in my head "well you're nice but not the best...almost done, you're still not the exact person that is supposed to be. try harder."
I know I sound like an ambitious person but the funny thing is that I don't do anything in order to make this feeling go away. I stand still, embrace the status quo and live the same day over and over again. These days my life is like the "Groundhog Day" except that I'm not doing any nice things to anyone.