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I love love love the reading skills lectures (and my all time favorite lecturer Pinar Kur). I only wish for the deus ex machina to jump from the ceiling of my poor room (where I'm obliged to study for the "applications for the financial modeling" exam that only 9 hours left for me to study sleep shower go to school and fail ) and magically I become a film or media student who has nothing to do with finance or applications to model them. I have received an e-mail from a representative from The Queen Mary University of London asking if I were still interested in studying in the UK. I will meet her at the end of the month as I am willing to murder some people (if necessary and if the world would be a better place without them - kidding) study in the UK, especially London. As you can easily see, if you have read my blog from the beginning, I am a person of no target, well maybe with so many targets from NY to Switzerland, you didn't know but some Amsterdam arrived right after and finally a piece of UK wouldn't hurt. I would be happy if I can be accepted from any of those so there is no problem with being open to possibilities, right? Finally, I'm ending my words with the wish of having everyone find the job and the education that will make them happy to get up every morning and smile when they leave the house.

PS: A little piece of advice, for my compatriots of course, "Yurumek - Sevgi Soysal". A really good book that makes you ask how can the people of 1960s and the people today have the exact same problems and be affected by the very same oppressive way of being brought up. The book makes you get angry but a bit hopeless as well for you know the public is not made of you and your kind of people. Actually deep inside you know that the crowd that you label as your type of people have the same pattern of thinking while they also have the proficiency of being pretentious all the time with the right to criticize whatever or whomever they wish unless they're successful in following the hidden path to approval.
I am sometimes scared of leaving the status quo and start over alone and reading books like this and observing the street make me sigh and persuade me that my decision was right from the beginning. But this I promise, I will be back and do whatever that is possible to make the mentality of the people living here change, in any age, if I have any power, I swear, whenever I see the sign of hope in this country and in the people.