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you can not step into people's houses and search for any evidence that you may find in order to put them in jail.
not everybody has to think the way you do.
you don't think the way i do and i hate the way you think but somehow you believe this is "your" country and the people who do not like it can leave it.
but if we want to stay here, you make us believe, we have to shut up and sit for it is you who have the power to break into my home and try to find a reason to make me guilty.
one out of two people has voted for you and i want to step on their feet and convince them that they were not in need of some coal or some fish before they started governing this country.
they should have made the economy better in order to make you buy your own food.
wake up please.
i am scared and i am hopeless and i know that they censor every other way we express ourselves and one day once again blogs will be censored too. i hate to use some tunnel to reach the websites, i'm sick of hiding our heads into the sand. why can't we accept that some people have different values and some people prefer to attack the others, since it's a matter of tolerance and the meaningful thing is to be able to explain yourself without attacking anyone. i don't care about what they say about anything i care about, because i know that first of all, someone has to accept something's greatness in order to find it valuable to spend time and effort attacking it.
i do not write in my native language and i know that the people i'm begging to wake up will not find this blog and read this even if it's in Turkish.
but yesterday, i had a long trip in traffic jam and chatted about everything with the very clever and open minded taxi driver. i was really truly planning to leave this country to itself and not fight about anything i believe for i was sick of the judgements of its people and their mediocre norms. but once he told me, if people like us had left it and not try to make a change to make the future brighter, my children would say the same thing about me. and there is no use in talking to people who have the same opinion as me about these subjects because we were already in the same ship going to the same direction. but if i can manage to change the point of views of a few people fighting those dark beliefs and thoughts, if i was not scared or tired (he added they were visiting the people in their homes without getting tired why would i) then i might say i have tried.

this is something i'm seriously concerned about in a day like today.
and if i can reach out to a few people who are planning to leave the ship and rescue themselves and put question marks in their heads, then it's already started to work it's way to the future..